December 19th, 2010 2:01 pm |
A lot has happened this past year. Things got so busy for me that I even stopped posting here for a few months. My head has been filled with wonderment, confusion, happiness and frustration throughout this year. With less than 11 days to 2011 I can’t help but reflect on what has gone on in my life, especially in the last 4 months. I certainly won’t go into much detail, nor do I have the capacity to share details at this time – but it has been one heck of a year.
As for my health, I have severely gone off my meds for my Type II Diabetes, but hopefully back on track. My doctors weren’t exactly happy with me and to tell you the truth, I wasn’t happy with myself and that probably was part of the reason I stopped taking care of myself. There have been a few times this year I would watch those Cymbalta commercials on TV and ask myself if I was one of those people. You know…the commercial where she says she has to wind herself up all the time and that she was also suffering from physical pain as a result of her depression? While I can count more times the happy moments in 2010, I have to say that the number of sad times, makes me concerned as well.
The Holidays have always been especially difficult for me as it is a reminder to me of togetherness and family. I watch shows and read stories about happy couples and I’m reminded that I’m alone. Yes, I have my close friends that are there for me and whom I love dearly, but I haven’t had anyone significant in my life in over 6 years.
My family is still together, but communication with them has been distant and short. That, in part, is my fault. I really need to do a better job of reaching out to my family. I have a nephew that turned 18 this year and I know nothing about him really. My youngest niece is going to be 3 in a few short weeks and I really want to be part of her life. My mom is here in the States and I haven’t had much time to spend with her. I really need to before she leaves for overseas again. As always, my dad and I have drifted apart. He’s really concentrated on his life away from us and that has had consequences on us all.
Work has been a whirlwind this year. I’m not going to go into any of the details other than I’ve been at a crossroads for sometime now and i think I need to make some decisions about the direction of my career and where I need to be in a few years.
We have 11 days left in 2010 and 376 days until 2012. Let’s see what I can do in 2011. Hopefully I’ll roll into 2012 under different circumstances. The Holidays has always been my favorite time of the year and I hope I can spend the next 11 days enjoying them.
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