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Relationships/Hookups/Dating/Friendships

March 16th, 2008 11:43 pm | No Comments

Sometimes the four categories of this blog entry mix together and there are even times where one melds into another.  For example a hookup turns into dating, which in turn turns into friendship and in some cases, even a relationship.  Then there are the times where you have a friend with benefits, where does that fit into the mix?

But what happens when you don’t have 3 of the categories? If you’re not dating are you relagated to having hookups and friendships? Can you have a relationship without going thru the dating stage? How many people have you hooked up with and was able to stay friends with?

Why am I talking about this?? You’re probably thinking that I’ve gone crazy, and that probably is the right answer.  I took a bit of a break from the office tonite and had to get out of the office or I would go insane. Once home, I turned on the tv and watched some cooking shows from Saturday that I have Tivo’d.  I also went online and did a blog entry and went on AIM and ran into someone who I hadn’t seen in a long time – it was my friend Alex [not the Alex from recently - I'll call this Alex, Alex C].  Alex C.  asked me how I was doing and I told him I was ok.

He had read a few of my last few blogs and said that I should be hanging out with him instead of going on dates that are just “ok”.  I laughed.  Truth is, Alex C. and I started off as friends. He approached me on a site and introduced himself to me. This was a couple of years back.  He actually found me thru my old podcast.  He never left comments while I was doing the podcast, but I knew he was there.  After moving back to the OC, Alex C. and I met.  He and I went on a few dinners together. I hesitate to call them dates.  We had always joked about “connecting up” and a few visits later we did.  We had a nice dinner and we went back to his place to watch a movie.  He was showing me something on the computer and then next thing I knew we were making out.  I was kinda caught by surprise.  Was this a friends with benefits thing or was this a hookup? We were still kinda new to being friends so, at the time, I classified it as a hookup.  After that night, I was hesitant to see him again. Don’t get me wrong, I had a great time.  It’s just that “connecting” sometimes clouds things and wasn’t sure if things changed.  The next few times we saw each other, I always distanced myself away making sure not to get too close. I wasn’t sure if Alex C. was that into me or not.

But why? What was I afraid of? Why did I distance myself.

Anyway….he said he wants to hang out more – he said he didn’t understand why we stopped hanging out.  I told him I might be at Tin Lizzies tomorrow night. I promised Karen (the bartender) I would come. I might call Alex and see if he wants to hang out tomorrow night.

So more closer to home, errr work, Tim is here. Actually there are a few people here. Tim had a good weekend seeing his neice and hangin out here in the OC.

Back to work I go….

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Weekend Wallows?? Uh, no.

March 16th, 2008 10:18 pm | No Comments

What a weekend. I’m tired. I worked a good chunk of the weekend.  I need to sleep.

I talked to Tim today. We talked about Thursday night. I’m not sure I was able to explain enough what I was going thru that night.  I know that it was a combination of alcohol and me being exhausted that caused this. Insecurites started to come out and it took over.

Back to work I go, yes…back to work at 10:15pm. Ugh. Have a good week everyone!

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