The World of Scott Mindeaux

May 20, 2004

05:47 pm – I wish we were all robots
Having feelings suck. I wish we could just turn off our emotions just like Data on Star Trek. I’ve been crying for the last couple of hours and I want to stop. But my mind keeps rewinding events in my head and I get sad and start to cry.

I miss Brian…

02:03 pm
Saw this from others on LJ… thought it was interesting. Here is my info:

University High
4771 Campus Dr.
Irvine, CA
92612-3298

Map it!

Statistics for University High:
School District: Irvine Unified
County: Orange
Low Grade: 09
High Grade: 12
Locale: Mid-Size City
Charter: No
Magnet: No
Title 1 School: No
Title 1 School Wide:
Number of Students: 2198
Number of Teachers: 85.10
Teacher to Student Percent: 25.80
Male: 1137
Female: 1045
Native American: 5
Asian: 998
Black: 39
Hispanic: 86
White: 1054
Number of Students Receiving Free Lunch: 73
Number of Students Receiving Reduced Lunch: 49
Migrant Students: 0

I’m dead tired

12:59 pm – I’m dead tired
Well I got up this morning to find that the power was off. I woke up cuz I was getting hot and realized that the fans were off. I called Brian to find out if it was a scheduled outage of it was just us. I looked outside and the lights to the building were on and I noticed that the apartment above us had power cuz their AC unit was on. Brian gave me the number to the office and I found out that they were clueless and they got a few calls from others in other buildings and that is was sporadic and people in the same building did have power.

I decided to go back to sleep. The problem here is that is is 10:31am and I’m supposed to get up. But my body and mind are so exhausted that I want to go to bed. I lay down for a few minutes. An hour goes by and the power is still off. At this point, I’m sweating and head to the freezer for a popsicle. yes…a popsicle. I know you’re not supposed to open the freezer if the power is off and let all the cold air out, but I was desperate. Halfway thru my grape flavored popsicle the power comes on. THe aquarium bubbles back and then looking at the entertainment center I hear the clicks of the equipment coming to life. Then the computer monitor comes on. THANK GOD I said.

What a Day…

02:43 pm – What a day….
Well for the last 4-5 weeks we have been preparing for a corporate visit from the President (Renee Benhke) and our new CEO (Kathy Tierney). I was tossing and turning most of last night and was up until about 2:30am working on new signage for the school and calling Kinkos saying I need them printed and ready for pickup at 6:30am.

I got up at 5:30am, showered, changed and the whole time trying to wake up. I mean..I just got to sleep for God’s sake! . I got on the Dulles Toll Road and zoomed towards 66. It was 6:23am and so far there was no traffic in sight. I made it all the way to Glebe on 66 when the usual Gleve Raod exit backup started. Damn. I had to get off at Glebe and work my way to Pentagon Row via surface streets. Luckily, the streets were empty. I got to Kinkos in Crystal City at about 6:50, picked up the signs and zoomed off to work. I got there and I half expected Karen to be there. I got in and started to work on replacing the old signs in the kitchen.

It’s about 7:30am and something is wrong. My stomach is hurting like hell. I took a Zantac 75 earlier cuz I was feeling the beginnings of acid reflux…..BUT I took it with a Coke. That’s gotta be wrong or something. That’s like drinking milk to down your lactid acid pill. Anyways..about 7:45am I’m in pain. Bathroom time. Suffice it to say…I was doing much better about 10 minutes later. Karen showed up and we both looked at each other and we were scared. We both settled down and told ourselves that we were going to be fine. She told me that Renee and Kathy were at Tysons the night before and that Renee was moving things all around. We were certain that was going to happen here.

Nancy Kent showed up at 8am and started to help with setting up for our 9am breakfast meeting. Kyle was there too and she helped put this breakfast together. She made this great strada of eggs and sausage. She also brought in mixed fruits. Daniel made cinnamon bread and Donna Jean made this wonderful baked oatmeal with blueberries. Karen called Mike and we found out that he was just leaving home and that he should be here by 9. I said..yeah right….66 is so backed up right now that there is no way. Then 3 minutes he calls to tell us that he is riding in by himslef and that Renee and Kathy were already on a cab from Tyson’s Corner. WHAT!?!?

At around 8:30, a Yellow Cab from Fairfax pulls up to the side of the store and lo and behold, Kathy and Renee walk out. I”m in the kitchen furiously cleaning the grease spatters in the inside glass of the oven. I can hear them out in the store saying hello to Karen. Meanwhile I’m panicing over some P-Touch tape that won’t come off and I can’t have it looking like that in front of Renee. Renee is very particular about how her stores and schools look. I mean she owns the company and if not for her descrening (sp) eye..the company would not be where it is now.

Renee and Kathy walk into the kitchen and I walk over and introduce myself. I shake Renee’s hand then introduce myself to Kathy. I’m so nervous. I introduced Kyle and Nancy to them. But I forgot to tell Kyle and Nancy who THEY were! A few minutes later Nancy comes up to me and says “who is who?” I chuckle and realize I didn’t introduce who they were. They decided to go to Starbucks while we wait for the rest of the employees to show up for the 9am meeting. Mike arrived and everyone else showed up minutes later. We got the meeting going and that lasted about an hour long.

I really like the new CEO. I did get some face time with Kathy and talked about the cooking program and where I thought things stood with the program. Renee was there too and was interested in what I had to say. Right after the meeting I offered to show kathy and Renee my kitchen. Renee said that everything was organized and she even checked my knife drawers to see if they were locked. I told her they weren’t locked because we were using them that morning. However…note to self…they weren’t locked from the night before!

Renee and Kathy were there until about 1:30pm or so. The energy in the store was bright. All the employees were beaming and the store was busy with customers. Renee complimented the staff and the store many times and she said this was one of here most favorite stores. They left and the staff did a collective sigh of relief.

WE DID IT!! Karen and I passed with flying colors and more! Thru all this madness, we had to start prepping for Robyn’s class, Creative Main Dish Salads.

I’m so thankful to our staff….you all did a great job!
Current Mood: [mood icon] ecstatic
Current Music: IN my head: It’s Raining Men (it makes me feel happy)

05:45 am – i just realized
Isn’t it a weird feeling when you wake up like 1 minute before your alarm is supposed to go off??

I’m always in shock….
Current Mood: [mood icon] surprised
Current Music: In my head: Malaguena

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05:24 am – What’s going to happen today…
I can’t belive I”m actually up. have to get ready for work. Need to get on the toll road and 66 BEFORE HOV hits at 6:30.

gotta go….

i’m so sleepy….
Current Mood: [mood icon] contemplative
Current Music: iN MY HEAD: FUNERAL MARCH

01:16 am – I miss Daniel…
Dr. Daniel Jackson that is.

I missed Stargate SG-1 tonite….

grrr….
Current Mood: [mood icon] pissed off
Current Music: same as before

01:14 am
Well I just finished creating the new signage for the school. I really shouldn’t be designing new signage when its the middle of the night and I am running on vapors. These last few weeks has been very hard on me with projects galore. Let’s see…in the last few weeks I have:

* Hosted a major cooking competition for Fine Cooking Magazine

* Installed new Wolf and SubZero appliances in my school kitchen

* Learned that you have to xray or sonogram concrete before you can drill into it in a commercial location

* Kept a 75%+ fill rate at the school

* Moved out of Rosslyn, since David got us kicked out (long story for another entry)

* Moved in with Brian temporarily out in Reston

* Help maintain the CMI Registration website, helped add Dallas and Los Angeles to the mix

* Started teaching cooking classes: Friday Night Basics

* Realize that I still like Brian very much

* Met one of Brian’s new “friends”

* Wished my mom Happy Mother’s Day and made her cry (she misses me)

* Learning how to connect from Fairfax Connector to METRO and back

I’m tired…can I go to bed yet?
Current Mood: [mood icon] sleepy
Current Music: Listening to Margaret Cho

So much to do…

10:59 pm – There’s so much to do!
Well its about 10-11 hours to countdown. Renee Benkhe the President of Sur La Table and the new CEO will be visiting the store and school tomorrow. We stayed late tonight to do any last minute cleaning that needed to happen. I had Stephanie, David, Nancy and Susan come in and do a last minute push on kitchen cleaning.

Earlier today, we had a meeting to talk about class operations. I bought everyone dinner and talked about how we can improve productivity in the kitchen during classes. Everyone had some good ideas and we will see how things go in the next little while.

Earlier today I started panicing and I think I got Karen a little scared. She was worried that I was getting worried. I finally made it into work this afternoon after stopping off at Office Depot to pick up ink cartridges for the printer at work and some supplies. I didn’t make it into restaurant depot today. Will try to go tomorrow after Renee leaves.

I also spent today getting my weekly reports into corporate. My desk is amess. I basically purged and cleaned the four big stacks of paper on my desk. I’ll have to finish cleaning my desk in the morning.

My biggest panic right now is that the laundry rooms are closed and I need to do laundry. I live in Reston now…where the F(*& am I going to find a 24 hour laundromat. I know there are a few in Arlington, but do I want to drive all the way back?

Brian is home and typing to his friends online. We haven’t exchanged alot of words since last Thursday. I’m sad.

In other news…I FINALLY got my mx records changed on my domain and my email is working again. So for those who want to reach me you can email me at scott@scottmindeaux.com

More to come later…its time to have a very very late dinner. I’m a chef..why am I microwaving dinner? Ugh.

Current Mood: [mood icon] disappointed
Current Music: Listening to Fox 5 Evening News

01:23 pm – why am i still here
oh shit….i’m still here. why?!?! on my way to work…
Current Mood: [mood icon] guilty

11:41 am – I’m soooo late for work
Karen called me from the store and told me that Bob Kinkead from Colvin Run Tavern had called and has been trying to reach someone in coporate promotions for weeks. Bob is teaching a class here on Thursday. The class is full.

Stephanie then called and I asked her to do a few things. The spice rack had to come down and the oil/vinegars were being moved too. As soon as I get in, we’re heading over to Restaurant Depot.

Gotta take a shower…i’m soooo late.
Current Mood: [mood icon] anxious
Current Music: none…the west wing is in the background

10:06 am – That was the weekend?
Whoa! THe weekend came and gone without a trace. I just got up and realized I’m going to be late again today. Renee, the president of the company, is scheduled to visit the store on Tuesday. Today is the last day we can attack any details we haven’t gotten to. Karen and the store team have been working hard to get the store all organized and beautiful. Me and my team will be working on the kitchen today. Lots of things to do yet.

Now we have to step back a couple of hours. I guess Brian got up this morning around 8 and got ready for work. I was dead to the world still. He woke me up, I was on the couch, and told me he was leaving for work. I said bye and curled back up when he said “awwww…you’re so cute when you’re sleepy”. I asked him if he got the SmartTag box for his windshield and he went to get it to install it. He said he would see me tonite and kissed me on the arm. I still don’t know what to make of this past weekend. I’m still thrown at the fact that I had to meet “A” in person.

Lots of things to think about. But right now, I have to concentrate on the here and now. TIme for a shower then over to Office Depot for some supplies, then off to work, then off to Restaurant Depot for other supplies. Stephanie my new assistant will be in today. She has been great during her first week. Dove right in without hesitation and handled things. I’m hoping to have some 1 on 1 time with her to start guiding her in how I like things done. I”m feeling as if she has gotten used to lots of independence and I like to run a tight ship.

Well off I go…more entries later today I”m sure…

Where is Brian…

12:52 pm – Where is Brian?
Hi folks, well its Sunday afternoon and I just finished a run to Balduccis (Formerly Sutton Place Gourmet) to pick up some Prime and Black Angus meat for our class today.

I haven’t heard from Brian yet today. I left the house this morning around 11:45. I fell asleep last nite around 4am with Rachel Ray on Video On Demand. I got up and my arm was numb. I hate sleeping on the couch. I basically slept on it and I woke up with it all numb.

Gotta run..problem in the classroom.

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02:40 am – All alone on a Saturday night
Well, this will be my first journal entry. I used to keep a journal on my website, www.scottmindeaux.com, but I moved back to Dc and i got really busy.

I just finished watching Star Trek III for the 2nd time today. I’ve been channel flipping waiting to see if Brian was going to call and say he was coming home tonite. He went to some birthday party event with some of the gen-x bears with “A”. Brian came to the school to drop off a parking pass and he finally made some copy of the keys to the apartment. When he came into the school, I could see that “A” was in the passenger seat. I was sad. That set the tone for the rest of the day.

You see…. Brian has been hanging out with “A” alot lately. I’ve been getting upset that he has been hangin out with “A”. They have had multiple “relations”. I dunno…how do you live with a guy that you like alot, sleep inthe same bed, hang out most of the time and even get ready for work with everyday and have to think that Brian’s just a friend. He knows I want more and sometimes there are times where Brian wants more too. But he wants to “explore” and experience other people. Up until yesterday, all of his “friends” have been fictious to me since I have spent alot of energy avoiding them and not meeting them. TO me, not knowing them makes them not real. Well, “A” is now a real person and it bugs me.

I’m tired….Brian isn’t coming home tonite I guess. Time to go to bed.
Current Mood: [mood icon] sad
Current Music: dance music from cable music choice tv